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Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
11:47 pm	Muh I've decided to make the journal friends-only. just to be a pain in the ass (13 stabs | stab me)
5:31 pm	Which Great Teacher Onizuka character are you most like? brought to you by Quizilla I guess I can kinda see this one. ^ ^ cool tho. Urumi rocks. (2 stabs | stab me)
5:20 pm	I always knew I was Noboru. Dahahaha, you're Noboru Yoshikawa. You owe your life and your rekindled interest in it to the GTO, and for that you're very thankful. Quiet, painfully shy, kindhearted, you would like to do a lot of things for your friends but doubt yourself to be able to do them properly. Have some faith! You've got people to look out for you. Also, Kikuchi likes you. which of the GTO's students are you? (stab me)
2:45 pm	Fennarios tonite Muh. Everything seems so morose now. and I'm afraid depression is going to kick back in. I hate my school and I am not looking forward to going back in the least. I'll get along fine there. I'm hoping. but I don't want to go back. and plus it kinda hit me. for most of you guys it'll be your senior year. then you'll all leave. and shit. I mean most of my friends, even at my school are seniors. once everyone's gone off to fucking college I'll still be here and screwed. at least it's only one year. I think I can deal with that. Speaking of that tho I have to start looking into colleges myself. and thinking about stuff like PSATS and stupid shit. GODdamnit. I'm gonna miss summer like hell. next summer'll be even better. otakon pwnz. for life. shit. its times like these tho, I sit and think. and get depressed. and we're going on vacation for a fucking week. a fucking week with my family. I was given the option of staying at my grandparents. I dunno. And ignore this stupid entry because I'm whining. and I have no right to. I'm just kinda emptying my worries onto LJ, so don't mind it in the least. Fennario's tonight so all should be good ^ ^ I just got around to thinking. and usually that's a bad thing cuz I tend to think the worst. (7 stabs | stab me)
Monday, August 23rd, 2004
12:06 am	;_; Nader's leaving for college tomorrow. I cried. again. I'm gonna miss that kid so fucking much. Now its time to look into trains to virginia... Current Mood: sad Current Music: End of All Hope- Nightwish (stab me)
Saturday, August 21st, 2004
10:19 am	stolen from hannah Because I'm lame I'm doing another of these -----------------DESCRIBE------------------ [x] The shoes you wore today: right now, none, soon my boots. [x] Your eyes: blue [x] Your fears: being alone for the rest of my life. -----------------WHAT IS------------------ [x] Your most overused phrase on aim: it depends. I guess I use baisu and muh too much [x] Your thoughts first waking up: no idea [x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: hair and eyes [x] Your best physical feature: eyes and hair [x] Your bedtime: I don't have one...normally I go to bed at 3 tho [x] Your most missed memory: otakon. hands down. -----------------YOU PREFER------------------ [x] Pepsi or Coke: hmm pepsi [x] McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's [x] Single or group dates: group [x] Adidas or Nike: goodwill rocks. [x] Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate [x] Cappuccino or coffee: hmm, frappuccino's are good -----------------DO YOU------------------ [x] Cuss: too much [x] Take a shower everyday: yes [x] Have a crush(es): yea I normally do [x] Who are they: sore wa himitsu desu. [x] Do you think you've been in love?: yeah. I guess. [x] Want to go to college: hell yea. [x] Like high school: no. it fucking sucks [x] Want to get married: yeah. still having a hard time on the actually finding someone part [x] Type w/ your fingers: ...I don't get this question [x] Get motion sickness: not a bit [x] Think you're a health freak: ..not really. [x] Get along with your parents: sometimes. depends. [x] Like thunderstorms: yeah, cool shit there [x] Play an instrument: used to play piano, does voice count? ------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID / HAVE YOU-------------- [x] Go to the mall: shit....u know what's sad? I don't think I have....hmm I most likely did so I'll say yes [x] Eaten sushi: yea. [x] Been on stage: nope. [x] Been dumped: I haven't had a relationship to be dumped from in the past month [x] Gone skating: I suck at skating [x] Made homemade cookies: ...I don't THINK so [x] Dyed your hair: haha yeah. many times [x] Stolen anything: I'm not sure. I doubt it -----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------ [x] Flown on a plane:yea [x] Missed school because it was raining?: yeah [x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: I won't be the first to tell someone. I'm too much of a wuss and too afraid of rejection. [x] Cried during a Movie?: yeah all the time. [x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: haha yeah [x] Had an imaginary friend: who hasn't? [x] Cut your hair: myself? all the time. [x] Had crush on a teacher?: yeah...not the older men tho >< the younger ones. [x] Been caught "doing something": nope [x] Gotten beaten up?: nah -----------------THE FUTURE------------------ [x] Age you hope to be married: 27...its an odd number [x] Numbers and Names of Children: Carrot and Lan. and yes. I know I suck at naming kids tyvm for stating the obvious. [x] Descibe your Dream Wedding: Honestly? I hate really romantic shit. I don't care if I'm getting married, I'm still wearing all my gothic shit. :P [x] How do you want to die?: well it depends. if I'm gravely dishonored I'd want to take my own life. but other than that, I guess old age. never drowning, that always made me nervous. [x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: japanese teacher, or an animator, or a mangaka [x] What country would you most like to visit?: Japan. -----------------OPPOSITE SEX------------------ [x] Best eye color: brown [x] Best hair color: brown or black. or blue for that matter [x] Short or long hair: long [x] Best height: Shorter than 6 ft...cuz I can't cope, I'm too short as it is. [x] Best first date location: dude. GZG all the way. or the mall. I dunno. I'm pathetic like that. [x] Best first kiss location: who the fuck cares. -----------------NUMBER OF---------------- [x] Number of drugs taken illegally: nada [x] Number of people I could trust with my life: hmm, 4 come to mind immediately, so I'm going with them [x] Number of CDs that I own: a lot. most of it pirated. [x] Number of piercings: none right now but I wanna get cuffs. [x] Number of tattoos: nada [x] Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: once maybay? [x] Number of scars on my body: a couple, not to many. [x] Number of things in my past that I regret: I live with too many regrets to count them all ----------------FAVORITES------------------ [x] Shampoo: Pantene [x] Fav Color(s): crimson, cerulean [x] Day/Night: Night [x] Summer/Winter: summer [x] Favorite cartoon Character: right now its prolly sanji [x] Fave Food:bawls...its not a food tho [x] Fave Movies: not sure. that's always a hard one to think up. ----------------RIGHT NOW------------------ [x] Right Now Wearing: black pants and shirt. AAA SO GOTHIC. fuck u all. >_< [x] Thinking about: maria's party [x] Listening to: silence ---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------ [x] Cried: meh [x] Worn jeans: no [x] Met someone new: yea at the tournament [x] Done laundry: nope [x] Drove a car: no. ---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN-------------- [x] Yourself: on occasion. the rest of the time I despise myself [x] Your friends: depends on what friend. there are some I always believe in and you know who you are. [x] Santa Claus: ...of course stupid. 0.o [x] Tooth Fairy: haha I killed her. [x] Destiny/Fate: sometimes. I just wish it'd be nicer. [x] Angels: no. fuck god. [x] Ghosts: I dunno. [x] UFO's: not really [x] God: No. fuck god. ------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------ [x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: I do and its Julie [x] Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: not at the moment. [x] Do you like anyone?: I ALWAYS like someone [x] friends?: uh, what? yeah I have friends..i think. [x] Are you close to any family member?:not really. [x] What's the best feeling in the world?: being around people [x] Worst Feeling?: being alone...while angsting. [x] What time is it now?: 10:40 am, shoot me I woke up early Friends.... talks to much?:Julia and Chrissy talk the most has a big mouth?: I sometimes do, other than that, Jul is ugliest?: the donkey with the lame dick. Gilbert. 0.o ask Tom Hines. is prettiest?: I dunno. most likely to end up in jail?: me. or maybe u. most likely to suceed?: amy most likely to drop out of school?: I could see loryn dropping out....for like a few days. favorites... color(s)?: black and crimson shoes?: boots jeans?: I don't wear em shirt?: .hack shirt or my small black one clothing brand?: tripp. singer?: a few, Takashi Sorimachi, Gackt rapper?:Hate rap. haha I almost typed hate rape... band?: X Japan, GLAY, Dir en Grey, Malice Mizer, Clash, the Cure, Slayer, Billy Idol song?: Baroque, Last Dance, Orgasm and others. place to hang out?: GZG and tilt thing to do?: play magic and DDR, and hang out with people. n stuff. lots of stuff. FINALLY I'M GODDAMN FINISHED!...I could be nice and put this under an LJ cut, but I'll be an asshole. Current Mood: excited Current Music: Peace and Love Incorporated-Information Society (4 stabs | stab me)
Friday, August 20th, 2004
1:33 pm	I'm exceptionally artistic! Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com. I'm bored. AA. I'm artistic. yay...I'm overjoyed. like riding a donkey with a lame dick. and yes. I do mean it in that way. Bite me. (2 stabs | stab me)
Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
11:56 am	I feel as though I'm falling yet really I'm still alive. I don't understand where this sensation began, yet slowly it has been building up. As my stupidity heeds me through, so it also brings stumbling blocks in the road. I want to keep traveling forward, yet encircling me is a spiraling path downward. I was afraid of facing reality so I shut myself off from the world. There are plenty of faces, but no personality to attach to them. The faces threaten to crowd me out, leaving me desolate and confused. You speak, but you don't understand what even you are saying. Years of meaningless words have poured from your tongue, where do you turn? Even philosophy is fake, it is only using pretty words to describe things. Real communication comes not through speech but through simple actions. Even as I surmise to know a thing as to what I am talking about, I know nothing. Even these words I say now are insignificant in the spoke of things. Words can affect someone, but my words will never do as such. Its really stupid of me, but I shut myself off from real affection. I thrive with people, yet I am afraid of becoming close, afraid of being loved. As these thoughts swirl through my head they close down on me. I drown in a pool of lost emotions and hopes, and its one I am doomed to never come out from. I am losing ground in my battle with life, and slowly I'll become engulfed in my own sense of loss and confusion. Where the road will turn, no one knows, but there is a certain pointlessness in it. All of these things that we strive for each day, slowly piece by piece lead to our own demise. The world we once knew has always been rapidly changing. Through each advancement comes a price we must pay and through each stumble we rise up again. Yet there is a point you can not rise again. At some point, you can't get back up and you are imprisoned by the maze which you have created for yourself. Your prison of solitude clips your wings to roam free. Entangled in the chains of a harsh reality, your life which you once called your own has been forsaken. ........meh I wrote some of the oddest stuff. (6 stabs | stab me)
Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
12:03 pm	Rawr, I'm tired. meh I guess I gotta start with my weekend. Blech, it was in Pittsburgh it sucked ass, the car ride was hell I hate my relatives down there. well yesterday dad and me left back home and the rest of my family stayed. Joy. Car ride back? 5 hours. fucking long hours. eh the rest of the day made up for it, even tho i was dead tired. So yeah took the bus down to GZG. It was weird tho. I was waiting for the bus and standing near out in the street and the funniest fucking thing was that some guy in his car in the middle of fucking traffic stopped and was coming over to where I was standing. ...look I'm not a fucking hitchiker. The bus was rite behind him tho so yea. Shit man, then it was about a half hour of joy with all the old people on the bus. But yeah thank god people normally stop right at the mcdonald's because I can get there really easily. Haha it was funny I got there and someone waved, but I didn't recognize nader. Haha I suck at recognizing people, so yeah got there, found out McKibbins was gonna be there, FUCK. Julia ran out and like glomped me, much <3 Jul. We played some DDR and some magic for awhile. Tried to get Zack's marble counter pieces in Julia's shirt. My aim sucks. real bad. Chrissy and Harkins had to leave and Chrissy's little bro Phil came in, he was a cool kid. They left and I played at least 4 games of magic with zack. The 4th one I won. Jul was getting bored so she read some gay book. about christmas. Played some more DDR, and then they left. I hung out with Nader, McKibbins and Bob the rest of the night. Pretty fun shit. I sucked at magic. again. I owned DDR tho. and I REALLY SUCK at pool. I never played it b4 tho, so I had an excuse. Shit Mike was good at it. o.o haha it was cool, Tom Hines made a rare appearance online last night. I was like JESUS!! ........I'm tired. Suck on this biznatches. I got a fucking 15 on City Jumper. ^ ^ I proudly have no life. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Kimi ga Ita Monogatari- .hack (5 stabs | stab me)
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
11:15 pm	JAPAN NITE! first thing first japanese people are the most polite people on the face of this earth. All of the people there are adorable and sweet. Second. BJJ strikes again. nuff said. HAHA it was awesome tho. Cuz Phil and me slipped a condom under her door and were like room service! the pads for ddr sucked a bitch. I did bad at DDR, tomorrow I'll do better. Ursinus campus roolz. Julia, everyone could see waaay too much of you when u were dancing. ROFL ur kimono kept coming open. HAHAHA. It was funny. Zack was drowning his sorrows in cola. Yuichi and Erika are SO kyoot. I'm going to GZG tomorrow, yay. Noelle u should be japanese. I love it at Ursinus tho, it was an awesome time guys u rock. (8 stabs | stab me)
12:05 pm	Fetus for the wise I adopted a cute lil' tempura fetus from Fetusmart! mm..yummy. I FINALLY GOT A FETUS! Murf its awesome. and tastes good too. (5 stabs | stab me)
Sunday, August 8th, 2004
11:48 pm	Otakon Pix I'm finally posting a few, I'm too layzay to do the rest tonite, so here's six of the otakon pictures to satisfy.   ( PORN PIX HERE....0_o ok maybe not... ) (8 stabs | stab me)
9:24 pm	I want to eat soup I think. Ramen's always good. Man, I got Ranma part 2 its excellent shit. Hum, about the characters we're being for .hack//sign next year, we all really need to talk about that. What day's good for people? Wutever. JAPAN NIGHT ON TUESDAY!! I'M SO THERE! Dirf. Uhm yeah I'm kinda tired, I've been semi-lethargic lately? Eh I wanna go to GZG again. I like playing magic there. The game's been beckoning me. >< GODDAMN I'M HOOKED AGAIN! (stab me)
Saturday, August 7th, 2004
2:08 am	I like my ass. It is small but its pretty. Julia is a white Fro. Like Jeffro. Chrissy don't rape her...she's myne. ....cough. I mean Zackary's of course. Zack, ur eyes pulsate and u remind me of a bunny rabbit. Julia says AWWW. The Japanese people are watching u. In ur sleep. U never get a chance of ressst. Hee hee hee. We sound like fucking beavis and butthead. Julia's sticking forks down her shirt. I think its to compensate for her lack of boobs. She's threatening me now with the fork. EEK SAVE ME! RAPE!. ooh it tingles. Damnit, by otakon next year, I need to fucking grow in my boobs. and that made no sense whatsoever. At least we don't want to chop them off. Julia is being stingy and won't let me type. I need to take a piss. I'm going to piss in the bushes outdoors. with Merlin. I LIKE BLT's.....mmm juicy. I'm going to throw a sock at Julia. Go me. She's whistleing. I need to throw the sock at her.. mERF. Totally dude. Boxer briefs SUCK. *shudderz* (4 stabs | stab me)
Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
10:05 pm	GZG today, man it was fun. THEY HAVE DDR THERE NOW. Dude. screw tilt, much luv there n all but they have it $ 2.00 for a half an hour. and I don't have the games. So that is good. We played a pretty sweet game of magic, I woulda been done for if Nader wasn't coaching, but he was so I ended up winning. Sorry Zack for that one move in the beginning...I wasn't thinking....ROFL. Got a few more cards for my deck, its actually pretty good tho, tank u stacy!!! I'm sleepy tho. Dude Mike I think I saw u on the road 0_o....was I hallucinating? It was near GZG.... I'm REALLY tired (1 stab | stab me)
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
11:19 pm	1. Been to a Backstreet Boys concert: Jesus already hates me enough, why give him cause to hate me more 2. Been on a plane: yea 3. Been on a cruise:nah 4. Went swimming in the ocean:who hasn't? 5. Been to Europe: ireland 6. Been to Mexico: no 7. Been to Canada: no fuck it 8. Been to China: no 9. Been to Alaska: no 10. Been to Japan: I wish 11. Been to Korea: nah 12. Been in a school play: Yeah, I don't think I will be in them nemore tho 13. Gone to Church: HAH I used to 14. Watched "Dawson's Creek": no. 15. Seen a grizzly bear (not in the zoo): ..o.o there's a bear rug in our house 16. Been to Lake Powell: what's that? 17. Gone skiing: nope 18. Gone snowboarding: nope 19. Been on a motorcycle or motorbike: nah 20. Fell asleep during a scary movie: I dunno I usually am awake 21. Never slept during a night: sure 22. Played field hockey in gym class 23. Played soccer: in 5th and 6th grade 24. Played baseball:nope 25. Been to a Major League Baseball game: no. ha BITE ME BIZNATCHES. 26. Sat in a suite at a basketball game: no. 27. Seen the Harlem Globetrotters: in scooby doo.. 29. Gone to Applebee's: nope 30. Eaten fish: yeah 32. Seen someone die (not in a movie): no...shivers 33. Met a celebrity: TM Revolution. XD 34. Met the president: who the fuck cares 35. Sang in public: I tend to do that a LOT 36. Driven a car: damn no 37. Didn't wash your hair for a week: I don't think so...ewww. 38. Been to all 50 states: I've barely been to any 39. Broken something valuable: haha prolly 40. Disobeyed your parents: yeah...most of the stuff I do they DON'T know about tho 41. Missed a day of Church: all the time 42. Skipped school: I've cut class but not school 43. Your teachers have been on strike: yea 44. Broken through ice noo 45. Bought ice cream from an ice cream truck: YEA! I luv those things 46. Used your parents credit card (with permission): yea on an internet order...0_0 47. Gotten a cavity: nope 48. Broke your arm:nope 49. Been given stitches: nein 50. Shopped at Abecrombie and Fitch: ewies no 51. Shopped at American Eagle: icky groosss 52. Shopped at Old Navy: I've been forcibly dragged there. 53. Not filled out a chain letter: I never fill them out 54. Been to the top of the Statue of Liberty: I still want to go to new york 55. Dunked a basketball: nah 56. Wrote a story and had it published: i wish 57. Filled a piggy bank:nah 58. Walked down 5th Avenue: yea 59. Read "Gone With the Wind": no 60. Danced in a ballet recital: nein 61. Built a snowman: when I was a kid 62. Went to the Olympics:nah I hate sports 63. Went to Africa: egh no 64. Drove over the Golden Gate bridge. I've never been to california 65. Milked a cow: when I was in kindergarten 66. Husked corn: yes. and I've done it while watching maze with Julia too 67. Carried a real Koala bear: I want to eat one...oh wait, I'm thinking of the koala yummies 68. Saw the Northern Lights:no 69. Been to a runway fashion show: nope 70. Went to the Smithsonian: 2nd grade well all I got from that, was I still haven't done a lot to waste my life. go me. (1 stab | stab me)
11:03 pm	Otakon was exceptionally amazing. Too much for me to write down tho. If you want to know about it, give me a call, but other than that u'll have to wait for my kon report. Its sad tho after kon is over and done with u'r left with an emptiness. And its kinda like that feeling that u miss constantly being with someone. It was nice like that. Sigh, I can't wait til next year's. More amazement. XD (stab me)
Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
10:21 pm	Otakon is tomorrow. If I don't burst from excitement u'll still hear from me. I can't fucking wait. Bye to all. (6 stabs | stab me)
Monday, July 26th, 2004
12:09 pm	which one of your LJ friends loves you LJ Username enough to be friends aumichan hates you to death butterflyhunter has a crush devilli0n loves you SO much eslingca dreams of haveing sex with you cloud966 wants to marry you deducing This fun quiz by someone_lover - Taken 24693 Times. </a> New - COOL Dating Tips and Romance Advice! ...Zack HAYTS ME!!! WAAAA!! :P... Mike it musta been the keen stalking skillz, eh? Nader just dreams of having sex, period. and 0.0 thanks hannah but I never ever wanted to know (14 stabs | stab me)
12:54 am	I've found that I like to lick myself. (9 stabs | stab me)